Deep Gratitude

I'm so grateful in this moment for my life, my family, my friends and my God. We all go through things at times that wear us down and we end up saying why this...AGAIN?!?! I'm not the first person to experience the things I experience. And I am just so thankful for awesome friends and wonderful family. But above all my Lord Jesus Christ. He is the one who gets me through it all. Without Him and His amazing power I would be nothing more than useless. My fears and trials are so insignificant to the average person but so big to me. I am thankful for the kind of friend I have always wanted. The kind that listens and doesn't judge me for overreacting in this moment of my trauma. The kind of trauma that yesterday was all-consuming yet today the edge has worn off a bit. An ear to listen and a heart to pray and plead on my behalf - when I didn't have the strength or the state of mind to do it myself. Also, I am so thankful for a husband who loves me so much and even in the hardest of times somehow I still see that and am reminded even by others just how awesome he is. He is one in a million and even in my fits of rage yesterday I see that is the truth. Thank God for "Godly Anger" as a friend so kindly put it. The love of so many surrounds me and encompasses me with floods of tears. Unlike yesterday, today my trauma seems so much more managable. I CAN DO THIS!! I AM STRONG!! So many others see it. Why can't I? Well, I do.

All who are thirsty
All who are weak
Come to the fountain
Dip your heart in the stream of life
Let the pain and the sorrow
Be washed away
In the waves of his mercy
As deep cries out to deep

This is the song I sing today!! In the waves of His mercy...He is so merciful. That's the cry of my heart today. To bestow mercy upon those that need it so badly from me. Jesus gives it to me daily.

My deepest gratitude for all who love and care for me. I'm sure more than I can even fathom.